Beau's Surgery

Holy crap - I can't believe I haven't posted anything since July 7th. I totally suck at this lately. I'm sorry but honestly I haven't even been taking that many pictures and no video which I feel terrible about. I took so many pictures and video of Olivia for the first 2 years of her life and Beau has totally gotten screwed in that department. I think it's just because I feel so overwhelmed all of the time that I don't take the time to stop and grab my camera or video camera. I'm working on it though - both the stress and the feeling of being overwhelmed all of the time. I don't know what it is but I just cannot shake the fog that I've been in this year. I'm still struggling to lose at least 20 lbs. I have taken up working out again though which has been helping tremendously. I work out with 5 people at work. We run two days and do videos in the gym 3 days. We are going to switch to 3 days running though because we are planning on running our first 5K in November. I am excited about that. I have actually learned to like running. I just need to change my terrible eating habits. My sweet tooth is killing any results I should be gaining from the running and working out thing. I have pretty much just "maintained".

Anyway - Beau had surgery on Friday. He was born with a congenital birth defect condition called hypospadias. I'll let you google it if you've never heard of it. He had a mild case but he did end up with over 100 stitches and a catheter until Thursday. He did so well and is doing so well. I really can't tell a difference in his mood. He does have some bladder spasms occasionally but overall he hasn't been fussy at all. It's a pain to change his diaper - he has to wear two so the catheter empties out into the second one. I'm so worried that he will accidentally pull on the catheter but so far so good. I've got him home until he gets it out though. Daycare said I could bring him but I think it would be too much for them to change him, give him all of his meds and watch that he doesn't straddle anything. My poor baby:( I'm enjoying my alone time with him. It's hard to give each one of them individual attention and I feel guilty. Olivia has been jealous lately saying that I love Beau more and that I do more for him. It breaks my heart when she says that because I don't want her to feel that way. I've been trying to be more mindful of that and spend some extra time at night with her after Beau has gone to bed.

We celebrated Sean's 40th birthday at Lake Norman with his parents in August. Had a great time. We also went home to PA over Labor Day in September. We had a great time there too. Olivia stayed with her grandparents for two nights in a row with her cousin Brea. She had so much fun. I wish we didn't live so far away so she could do that more often. The drive is 11 hours - ugh.....

By the way - all of the pictures are from the hospital on Friday. The one with Beau sleeping was immediately after they gave him valium to calm him down. We had to wait two and a half hours before surgery and he was starving since he couldn't eat after midnight. He was screaming for pretty much an hour. She gave him that and it knocked him out.

Well I will TRY not to wait so long between posts this month.